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Driving licenseHighlight my hairrrrrrr ^^- TATTOO. (ON THE ARM) By Dec.
- Get into Navy
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[Nov. 24th, 2009|12:00 pm] |
What I have been doing this whole 3 weeks :
- DONE MY HIGHLIGHT. AFTER SO FUCKING LONG. Finally got it done.
- Going into JB alternate days. FUCK THIS SHIT. JB IS MY NEW HOMETOWN.
- Got a job, to get my mind off things. COME FIND ME AT ISETAN WISMA OKOKOK HAVAIANAS.
- Smoke smoke smoke. I CAN DIE FASTER LIKE THAT.
THATS MY 3 WEEKS.
No, I am still not over you, yet.
Cant wait for christmas, cant wait for the new year. I have nth on but I just cant wait for them to come. 2009 have not been nice to me, at all. :( So I am looking forward to 2010. Though 2 years closer to death, BUT FUCCCCCK, WHO FUCKING CARES??? But I bet i'll be a lonely soul for quite sometime.
Oh, and I am so hooked onto the abalone noodles in JB. FUCCCCCCK SO DAMN NICE. Hahahaha. Ok i'mma going to go in tonight, (maybe,high chance). And I AM DRIVING WHEEEZ. HARDCORE DRIVER LIAOZZZ. Hahahha.
I MISS NETTE AND SARAH LAUZZZ. Ok i just met them yesterday but I went off halfway cuz i've worrrrk. Going to chiong work after grad from schl. Hehehehe and apply for Navy!! Hopefully this path I have choose would not make me regret. Cuz 10 years down the road, I want to see myself somewhere my brother is now. Bonus anyhow come. Able to get a car and support myself.
Life has been rough for me recently. But I am still moving on. Cuz you, didn't want to turn back. I realised my mistakes too late, till the extend I could lose you, forever. This 3 weeks, I have been doing reflection. You have been really nice towards me, and I am the one taking and not giving. It's tough for you. A, believe me, you will stay longer in my heart longer than anyone else. Cuz you have given me the best of the best. If you think I am talking bullshit, i wont be surprised. Take care yourself, and remember, sock monkey will always be with you. :)
To you, who might be or not might be reading this. I dont know if i should trust you anymore. I am scared, afraid to open up again. Cuz i really dont know what you are thinking anymore. We hardly hang out. We hardly have meals tgt. Idk what you're doing and everything. But I still miss you as much. You might not like the things i say, the things i do, but do know, end of the day, i dont mean any of them. I wish we were as close as before, again. :( I miss you JG.
Going to end here. Blogger decided to be a bitch and delete my blog and ... YA I AM BACK HERE AND PUBLIC POSTS WILL START. ^^
To you A, I miss you terribly much. I didn't know life without you could be so hard. I fell, too deep. And got injuried, and here I am licking my own wounds. I miss you very much.
GOODBYE. AND I'MMA DRIVING CIVIC TO SCHL TODAAAAAY ^^ |
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[Nov. 17th, 2009|09:26 am] |
I'mma going to get that Fox hoody today. ):
Hopefully i get the job, and so i will stop thinking about you. And start earning extra cash for my own usage.
Going to sign on to navy once schl ends for me. No more baby varron whining. No more mommy anymore. Sigggh. Life changed real quickly.
No I am not over him yet, not now. Your smell your presence still lingers. How I wish I was like ** so I could simply just forget things like that, in a snap of fingers.
I want to go get my Fox hoody now, and swim in schl before lessons. BAI~ |
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[Nov. 15th, 2009|10:08 am] |
Can we talk, again? I miss you alaric. I miss you really badly.
I hope you see this.
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[Nov. 11th, 2009|04:42 pm] |
Cant you see I am stil want you? ): I am putting on a mask every single day. I cant keep going like this. Only you, you could make my day, again. I am sorry for everything I have said, i have done. I didnt mean any of them. I really wanted to apologise to you. I cant say it to you, but only do it on cyber. And only wish you'll see this.
I am here, dying. Every single day, after schl, I think of you. Eventually i took out my phone, wanting to dial your number, but i cant. Cause I know, you wont pick it up. Every morning, I am yeaning to see your text. Yeaning for your calls. Yeaning to hear your voice. Everytime I say you're irritating, i didnt mean it. I feel so broken. Shattered. Everyday, is a tough day. Every.Single.Day. I am like going through hell. In schl, I wish i could just see your back view, or just seeing you walk pass me. ):
Even when I am typing, i'm crying hard. Giving up isnt easy, at all.
I'm sry, forgive me.
Alaric.
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[Nov. 8th, 2009|08:58 am] |
Lesson learnt.
No 1 is able to do what he does. How he makes me feel when i'm tgt with him. I wish time could turn back, and not repeat my mistakes. If things is going to repeat, I will still luv him.
Just going to keep everything tgt, and pull myself up. Alone. Going through all these, myself.
It's hard. The harder i try, the harder it gets. So i'm not going to try, I'm just going to keep all these memories. All the toys, all the things he gave me.
A, i miss you so badly. |
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[Sep. 14th, 2009|10:56 am] |
( I HAVE .... )
GOING TO TRY TO SLEEP NAOZZZ. BIBI IS MY LUCK STARRRRR. ^^
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